Sickening...

This will be short and off topic from the blog, overall. I hate the idea of a plan for my life that is beyond my control. I really do. I know it to be true, as a christian, but I still don't like it. Im not sure why I have to be happy about that. I have seen people follow Christ to the ends of the earth only to die. I would rather that be the case. At least your dead at the end of the day. Go to heaven, be happy, ect. However, I hate being dragged along the path, unhappy, lonely, cold. It sucks, and I see no redeeming qualities to it, other than a growing skepticism towards all of this. Goodnight everyone, and Merry whateverthehellyouwant.